grown up...(is that one word or two?)

i feel so grown up right now(is that one word?)...i'm sitting at my desk, drinking my coffee (with caramel flavoring)...doing what grown-up's do (maybe it's hyphenated)...work...that's what grown ups do...work...yeehaw...and to think i couldn't wait to grow up!


i have always said i would never grow up. and in many ways i have proven this statement to be true (hold your comments to yourself please). but in some ways i do see my self "grown up." and sometimes i don't like it.


at times i am less patient with youth...because i can "see the future" and i know that the choices they are making are not good ones, and that these decisions can and will affect them for the rest of their lives. they are daily changing and shaping their future. so...me being the "fixer", i just want them to listen to me and do what i say! lol...but i try to keep this in check cause it's definitely not the way to relate to them!


i'm more voicestrous..if i think someone is acting just ridiculous or treating someone disrespectfully i say so. my sister says i do not do this in an appropriate manner when it comes to my family....but she's very opinionated (hahahahah)!


i'm more cautious about most things. i try to think things through better...that is a good thing. thinking before acting was never one of my strong points, as most know.


now, on to other news...i have a new job! i start dec 8th with children's division. i'm excited. i'm not excited, however, about telling the people i work with now that i'm leaving! i have really enjoyed my short two months of working here! the people i work with are great and i love what we do here. however, the opportunity of advancement and the benefits of this new job i just could not pass up. hopefully i will be able to partner with the shelter in the future as a volunteer. i think they are definitely a needed in this community!